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Mr. C is the most patient person I've ever met. I've never seen him being angry though we've been friends for a decade. He never ever get pissed or mad at me every time I throw tantrum at him. This happens in one of the days of our trip, after yet another tantrum.

Me: I think you are the world most patient person ever.
Him: Of course. You're my most loved person in the world.

Then, another day,

Me: Dear, remember the other day you said I'm your most loved person on earth?
Him: Ya?
Me: Then you will do the things that will make me happy. For example, you should give me 90% of your money for me to spend.
Him: Yes, I love you but unfortunately money doesn't love me. So I don't have money.

HAHAHAHAHA is it just me? I find we are both very humorous people,

2017

The overdue reflective post.

Life has always been mysterious and interesting. Mysterious in the sense that you will never know what lies ahead; interesting in the sense that there are always ups and downs in life to make life less mundane.

2016 started off not as good as how I want it to be. I was lost, helpless and afraid of the unknown. It took me half a year to finally come to my senses, and found my way back to happiness. Guilt still haunts me for breaking hearts but am glad to finally know how to not repeat my mistake. As the saying goes, once bitten twice shy. As much as I look happy and bubbly from the outside, I am unfortunately still believing in the 2-year curse.

They say with age comes responsibility but I say with age comes a weaker heart. I am no longer as adventurous as I used to be. I used to be not afraid of falling, be it at work or in relationship. I used to think that falling gives me new experience and teaches me new things - doesn't matter if I fall for I can always stand up and start again. But, with two failed ldr, I'm sorry to say I'm never gamed for another ldr. I have had enough.

The final two quarters of 2016 on the other hand has been great, both at work and in relationship. The last two quarters have reinforced 'everything happens for a reason' in me. I used to wonder why it took so many years for Mr. C and I to hit on even though people around us have always thought that we are an icon. Well, the years of being friends have really allowed us to understand each other very much and most importantly, these ten years of being friends have helped us or rather me to build trust between us both. For one, I have always had trust issue and it would take me a long, long time to gain trust but just a second to break this trust. Mr. C's scope of work would make matter worse too. If it's not for these ten years, we may not be able to survive together. Hence, these 10 years are necessary for us to enjoy what we are enjoying now.

In terms of work, I am glad I have found my passion. I no longer dread waking up and bringing myself to work. I no longer complain about working weekend. And I no longer complaine about the stress that I have to go through. Yes, the hours and stress level may be higher than what I have previously experienced, but surprisingly, I am actually handling them well. Despite having to work from Sunday to Friday willingly, I have no complaint. I am enjoying it.

Life's been good and I believe it will only get better in 2017.

So, bring it on 2017 and let's hope I will be able to cross these items out in my 2017 review.

To a healthier life - hitting the sack early & consistent attendance in Yoga;
To a better person - patience is a virtue;
To a better career - empower others to empower;
To a better family - lesser fights with parents and siblings; and
To a better SO - work for our future.

All in a package

Someone recently asked me how does it feel to be dating your best friend and it got me thinking. I was often thrown the question, "what is the difference between being friend and a lover?" I always reply saying that he cares for me deeper and I seem to be able to see our future. But, to be honest, I wasn't really convinced with my own answer.

So I threw the question at Mr. C and I love his respond - "There's basically no difference. Isn't it good that everything comes in a package? That's what perfect is to me." I do agree that things like that don't come by easily.

Thanks Mr. C!

Counting my blessings

And so history repeats again. But this time, at least I managed to find out the reason behind all these heartbreaks. I have never thought that life could be so complicated. 

The past 6 months have been a roller coaster ride and am counting my blessings for those who have stood by me. After months of tears shedding, head cracking and countless sleepless nights, I am glad  that I have found the answers to my questions and solutions to my problems. 

One thing for sure that I have learned from these disastrous past months is that, you can fool the world but you can never fool yourself. Well, I thought I could. I thought my life was well-controlled. I thought I knew what I wanted and how to achieve the things that I want. I thought I was smart. Maybe I am but just not in the love playing field. If only there is a "101 Guide to Love". Perhaps Mr. B is right - there's no right or wrong; it's just how different people react. Having said that, guilt still fills me. A lot. 

To those broken hearts,
I am sorry - I hope we have at least learned one or two things from each other;
I am sorry - for not honouring our promises;
I am sorry - for all the damages that I have done.

To the man with patience,
Thank you - for the 6 years and standing by me 24/7;
Thank you - for having faith in us;
Thank you - for all that you have done.

I thought such thing only exists in the movies. It's funny how I looked so far for the one thing and yet it is actually right beside me. Thank you universe, for all the life surprises you brought me. I promise to be appreciative and keep counting my blessings!

Come what may.

Someone once told me, the only thing that is permanent in this universe is change - so true. The most drastic change for me would be that, I made a life-changing decision to change career (totally unrelated career with what I was doing). No more endless overtime, taking unreasonable orders from the seniors, dealing with weird clients and etc. 

I would say it is quite a bold decision which shocked quite a number of the people whom I have spoken to, which include me, myself. But this decision was made after countless of sleepless nights, tears shedding and even many more head-cracking months. I have weighed the pros and cons as well as consider the options available. 

My dad always tells me that, the outside world is your oyster, waiting for you to explore. And I guess I should explore the outside world while I am still young and commitment-free. I mean what is the worst that could happen if I realised later on that, this is a wrong decision? In case you don't already know, I was from audit and am venturing into education. So, let's talk about how did I decide to go into education.

For those who know me, I have had 5 years of teaching experience prior to joining audit. Many told me that, it is not easy to endure the life of an auditor as there will be countless of overtime to go through and tight deadlines to meet. And, that is one of the reasons why I took up audit - I wanted to take the challenge and see how far I can go and how "strong" I am. Besides, audit promises to give me a great range of exposure and I did not know what I wanted to do back then. So, why not?

I told myself to go through a maximum of 4 years torture and at the same time, I have a mission for myself - to find out my passion - what do I really want to do for the rest of my life? Probably I would like audit? I didn't know what was ahead of me. I am the kind of person, whereby if you throw me lemons, I would make lemonade out of it. But I really want to find my passion and live the life I wanted instead of just following the flow.

I enjoy teaching people about things they don't know. Perhaps it's the superiority in me? I don't know. But what I know for sure is that, it gives me a great sense of self-fulfillment. Very often when someone is teaching in front of me - be it at work or in class, I would think about how I would adopt the approach or how I would improve the person's method of teaching. As time goes by, the urge for me to switch career becomes stronger and I realised that, probably teaching is my passion. 

But, I wasn't sure and did not dare to take the leap until one fine day, my ex-boss contacted me. I started giving it a serious thought - do I really want to teach? Could it be novelty? I guess life is a gamble and if everything in life is certainty, then it wouldn't be fun living anymore; as we would know what will happen next and when is our destiny. 

A trip down to Philippines made me realised that I really do have a strong urge in teaching. I saw so many homeless children roaming and sleeping on the street. A strong sympathy grew in me. They don't deserve those kind of life. I truly believe that education is the key out of poverty - if only they were offered proper education and guidance. The same back in our home country. Many were being discounted for the poor command in English - if only I could help. It is also from then on that I found my long-term career goal - to help those underprivileged.

I am not sure what God has in mind for me;
I am not sure what the future lies - is it good or is it bad?
But I want to take this leap - 
And even if I fall, I have no regrets in life.
Come what may! 

I am blessed.

It has been a little over three months but I am still in awe that you are mine! I would have to admit that the first three months into our relationship hasn’t been a bed of roses. Not because we argue a lot (actually we don't at all), but because we skipped the honeymoon stage of our relationship. Well, I can’t deny that I miss and love being pampered and taken care of; but I am not complaining. I am glad that I get to go through your worst moment of life with you in the past few months. I was a little insecure, worried and tired but I am happy that my presence has lightened you up and washed away your pain! Our relationship has been put to test from the start and hopefully your hand is the one that I am going to hold through the ups and downs of life!

After what has happened in the past months and now that you are on the road to recovery, I thought it would be great to do something different (I deserve some relaxing right? hehe…)! Your special day came just in time! I was so overwhelmed with work that I did not put much thought to it. Nonetheless, I hope you enjoyed the simple date I planned for you. 


Happy birthday!
Looking forward to the next one :)
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