I am turning into 21st next month! And, probably because of this age transition that I am able to see and understand myself clearer.
I have always admired those talented and ambitious people who know what they wanted to do from a very young age because they waste no time and energy in doing things they do not like. Having to grow up without knowing what are my strengths and what I want to do, made me feel like there was no reason to live, no future to look forward to and it just felt like I was wasting every second of my life. I was once told that, our lives are shortened with every breath we take. As dramatic as it may sound, but that was truly how I felt back then.
Veterinarian, zoologist, teacher and many other study fields came to my mind but none came true. I was still with no direction and thus, decided to follow what my dad wanted me to do. Though many believe that I shouldn't follow what my dad had planned for me, I have never regretted one bit. Instead, it brought me a step closer to what I wanted to do. Accounting and finance that's it!
If I were to be given the question "what do you see yourself in five (or ten) years' time?" few years back, I would probably be taken aback by this question. But now, I am glad, happy, relieve (any positive emotion you can think of) that I know what the answer is and roughly how will my future look like.
I may not be a successful or inspiring person in the world, but I still have to say that, finding who myself am and what I wanted to do, wasn't a bed of roses. I started thinking about my future when I was 16years old and now that I am almost 21, I finally know what I want to do. It took me about five years to figure out! I guess it's not about the time frame. Some people found it at an early age and there are people who go through life without having to know what they want to do. I guess, I am just one of the lucky and blessed person to finally know what I want to do. Along the process, it involves discouragements from people who do not have faith in you and some time as well as money wasted.
Now, all that is left for me to do, is to talk to my current manager and hopefully he understands (I guess he will, he is a nice person! And, he was one of the people who helped me to discover my future! ありがとう!). Finish up my finals and my last semester in HELP! Start looking for a new and relevant job! Get an internship! I have about 10 months for all these! Fingers crossed that all these will turn out the way I want it to be!
To me, discovering myself to find out who I am, my purpose in life and what I want to do in the future is very important!
I do not want to die, not knowing who myself am, that's rather scary -
it's like a person without soul;
I do not want to die, having to do or accomplished nothing -
then, what's the purpose of living?
I do not want to die, not having to inspire someone (though not yet, but I believe I will, SOON!) -
only then, your legacy lives on.
Go, discover yourself!
As cliche as it may sound, but
everyone is special in their own way!
Some day, I will!