He made me laugh

As far as opposite attracts, I do believe that it's the same attitude and mindset that draw two souls together.

When apart, we are two very different beings. He is patient and persistent while I'm impatient and easily give up when things don't work my way.

As much as we are different, the one thing that I really like is how we know how to let loose, how we come up with wacky jokes and ideas to crack each other up. The best thing is, we'll never get mad being laughed at :) instead, we are glad that we managed to put a smile on each other's face.

#hemademelaugh 1
Me: Why are you getting more and more hunched?
Him: I can't help it but my tummy is pulling me down. *While attempting to bulge his tummy

Lil thing make me smile :)

2017

The overdue reflective post.

Life has always been mysterious and interesting. Mysterious in the sense that you will never know what lies ahead; interesting in the sense that there are always ups and downs in life to make life less mundane.

2016 started off not as good as how I want it to be. I was lost, helpless and afraid of the unknown. It took me half a year to finally come to my senses, and found my way back to happiness. Guilt still haunts me for breaking hearts but am glad to finally know how to not repeat my mistake. As the saying goes, once bitten twice shy. As much as I look happy and bubbly from the outside, I am unfortunately still believing in the 2-year curse.

They say with age comes responsibility but I say with age comes a weaker heart. I am no longer as adventurous as I used to be. I used to be not afraid of falling, be it at work or in relationship. I used to think that falling gives me new experience and teaches me new things - doesn't matter if I fall for I can always stand up and start again. But, with two failed ldr, I'm sorry to say I'm never gamed for another ldr. I have had enough.

The final two quarters of 2016 on the other hand has been great, both at work and in relationship. The last two quarters have reinforced 'everything happens for a reason' in me. I used to wonder why it took so many years for Mr. C and I to hit on even though people around us have always thought that we are an icon. Well, the years of being friends have really allowed us to understand each other very much and most importantly, these ten years of being friends have helped us or rather me to build trust between us both. For one, I have always had trust issue and it would take me a long, long time to gain trust but just a second to break this trust. Mr. C's scope of work would make matter worse too. If it's not for these ten years, we may not be able to survive together. Hence, these 10 years are necessary for us to enjoy what we are enjoying now.

In terms of work, I am glad I have found my passion. I no longer dread waking up and bringing myself to work. I no longer complain about working weekend. And I no longer complaine about the stress that I have to go through. Yes, the hours and stress level may be higher than what I have previously experienced, but surprisingly, I am actually handling them well. Despite having to work from Sunday to Friday willingly, I have no complaint. I am enjoying it.

Life's been good and I believe it will only get better in 2017.

So, bring it on 2017 and let's hope I will be able to cross these items out in my 2017 review.

To a healthier life - hitting the sack early & consistent attendance in Yoga;
To a better person - patience is a virtue;
To a better career - empower others to empower;
To a better family - lesser fights with parents and siblings; and
To a better SO - work for our future.

All in a package

Someone recently asked me how does it feel to be dating your best friend and it got me thinking. I was often thrown the question, "what is the difference between being friend and a lover?" I always reply saying that he cares for me deeper and I seem to be able to see our future. But, to be honest, I wasn't really convinced with my own answer.

So I threw the question at Mr. C and I love his respond - "There's basically no difference. Isn't it good that everything comes in a package? That's what perfect is to me." I do agree that things like that don't come by easily.

Thanks Mr. C!

Dear Me.

Here's a reminder post for your future self, just in case. Life's been hectic but that's okay, it's a good sign. However, sometimes we tend to forget who we are, where we come from, why we decided to take this road not taken, and what do we want.

Everything happens for a reason. Don't be hard on yourself when things don't turn out the way you want. It is the lows in life that toughens you. Remember that arrow goes forward only after pulling in backward; bullet goes forward only after pressing the trigger backward. However, regardless of how bad things are, do not submit into self-pity. Remember to fight back and show the world your worth.

Stay humble. Do believe that change is the law of life and life is like a ride of Ferris wheel. We don't stay in our downfalls forever and likewise we don't stay at the top of the world for long. Whatever it is, do remember to stay humble with your achievements and help others see their worth and be successful as well. I want you to remember that being successful with your peers beats being successful alone.

Be thankful and grateful. Don't forget those who have helped you in time of need. The best gratitude you can show to them is to pass on their kindness to another person. Don't be clouded with material abundance, they are not as fulfilling.

Love your family and live life with no regret. We tend to always make time for friends and bf. What about your beloved family who has stood by you regardless of what happens? Don't ever forget to make time for them. I don't want you to live life with regrets. Learn from mistakes, remember them and make changes! Everyone's life is shortened with every breath they take. We never know when is the end of our life journey. So, treasure them while you can! Do the things you want to do, say the things you want to say. Continue living life to the fullest, you've been doing it well thus far.

Don't forget to leave an impact. Always remember your life goal - to make an impact in one's life. You are on the right track and you're doing it well. Continue spreading your vibes!

Be honest. Honesty has always been your first priority. Don't be a hypocrite. Always remember that mama told you - what you want, you first give. If you wish for honesty from others, you should do the same to others. Being honest can be hard, but I know you are good at it. Your dishonesty doesn't only hurt others, you are hurting yourself more. So, please, always remember this - be honest to everyone - including your family and bf.

Take time off. Don't forget to take time off to see the world. It is the best way to recharge yourself and remind yourself on what you are doing is what you want. Don't forget SA, CN, VN and other third world countries. If you ever forget what this is, go, go travel to these places. The plight of others will remind you.

Most importantly, I want you to stay as a power couple. Continue to be an inspiration to others. It makes life easier when you have someone thinking, working and aiming for the same goal. Continue to motivate each other and push each other to greater height. But, don't overwork and overlook each other. Remember to take time off to nurture your love. Learn from each other, accept and embrace the differences.

Lastly, do stay grounded!

Sandcastle 2

Just so you know, I'm in good hand - well-fed with desserts (countless cakes, inside scoop and McDonald's date), gained a few kgs, worked harder, complained lesser and laughed more. 

People always say that communication is vital in a relationship and many have questioned the way Mr. C and I communicate. However the truth is, the way we 'communicate' is one of a kind and incomparable. I'm starting to believe that we don't need modern technology to help us communicate, simply because we communicate on a whole new level - we communicate through heart. Or perhaps, it's confidence, understanding and respect, that we both share. 

I believe confidence comes with honesty.

Everyone defines honesty differently - some believe that honesty is priority even if the truth hurts; while some believe that there's no point sharing hurtful things. I am glad that we are on the same page in this - we both believe in the former.

Thank you for giving me the confidence with your honesty. My sandcastle of trust has now become a sturdy castle.

Fairy tales

Fairy tales are make-believe. Everything in fairy land seems perfect. However, the truth is, the reality is far from perfect.

I may be an adult, but as stupid as it sound, I thought perfect is reachable. It's time to wake up from my dream and learn to accept the imperfect.

The only thing permanent in life is change

"The only thing permanent in life is change" is slowly becoming one of my favorite quotes. Thinking of how much my life has changed since the last time I went to Japan, or rather since the beginning of the year. Same place but different company. The only thing that hasn't changed is the family. This proves that regardless of what happened, the only person who will stand by you is the ever annoying yet loving family. For that, I'm thankful of!

The past 6 months have especially changed my outlook on life. I do agree that life is one hell of complicated subject. And because of that, I've learnt to ignore what I can't control. You are in control of your own emotion, do not let things you can't control take charge of your emotion. 

I'm sure there are negative words or talking going about but I can't control what others want to say and I'm lazy to explain myself. I'm tired of explaining. There's a saying that goes, if you know me I don't haive to explain myself; but if you don't know me it'll be useless regardless of how much I explained. 

Hence, let's just say, I'm only answerable to God. And myself.